, ,

Since December marks the end of 2014, I felt that this review should encompass not only the month but the year.
December came and went so fast that I barely saw it coming.  I did get to enjoy some of the Christmas holiday but it didn’t linger like I had hoped.  Then we got sick so the last week or so of the year was completely a wash – well sort of.  We did rest and watch lots of movies.

2014 was not the best year ever and that’s okay.  It was a painful year of learning and growing.  I am sad to see it go but I am glad we are in 2015.  This year has so much promise that I hope to hang on tight and ride along with it.

No books for December and that makes me sad but I did read some awesome books this year.  When I think back on the books I read I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson is the one that stands out.  It was one of the last books I read but it’s such a beautiful and powerful book that I expect it to linger for a really long time.

This was the year I rediscovered my love of graphic novels.  I hadn’t given up reading them but it wasn’t with the same love.  This year I stretched my brain and read some amazing stories.  I think the best were Incognegro and Fun Home.  Both were powerful stories that remind us that graphic novels can be thought provoking and literary.

This last month we watched a ton of movies because we were sick.  I’m not going to list them all but share a few that kept us wanting to go back – Kinky Boots was more than a fun movie and even better than the truth behind it.  It’s a story about acceptance not only of others but of yourself.  I know it’s a “gay” movie but it’s so much more.  It’s the story of expectation and commitment and freedom of the ties that bind.

Another movie I watched that I have mentioned to others is Lovelace.  It’s not the best movie ever but to hear what Linda Lovelace went through is heartbreaking.  I’ve often defended and supported the porn industry because I believe women should be free to make choices about their bodies.  This movie paints a negative picture for the porn industry and the expectations put on women.  What I think is interesting is that it wasn’t the industry’s fault but the fault of her husband and those around her (if you want to be pointing fingers in the right direction).  Still it does make you think about the things women are forced to do.

We did go see Into the Woods (this was a year we went to the movies a lot).  We liked it.  Not sure we loved it.  My son is a huge fan of the Broadway version that it was hard to let go of expectations.  It was entertaining and anything that leads more people to musicals is always a plus.  I do hope it leads more people to watch the “original”.

Boy I can barely remember all the movies we watched this year.  It seems like they all just blend into each other.  Sadly nothing really jumps out at me.  I know this past week I’ve seen some that I can’t wait to share with you.

With that out of the way, I can look back at myself in 2014.  I did a lot of growing.  Growth always hurts.  The loss of the store hurt especially when I gave it my summer.  But I’m glad to be free of it and the passion it has ignited in me was worth it.  I hate that I am drowning in stuff but that is helping me learn to let go.  I’m not great with letting go.  I can fake it pretty good but I never really let go like I should.  Today I realized that it’s okay.  It’s okay to outgrow something.  It’s okay to want something different.

I learned I can write tutorials even if they are imperfect.  I became more disciplined when it comes to creating.  I miss having that need to complete for store deadlines but learning to make my own deadlines.  I got an amazing creative boost in 2014.

I think the one thing I learned most is that you keep going.  No stopping.  It doesn’t mean you hold on to a dream or project forever, it means that you, yourself can’t stop.  Make changes, roll with the punches but keep moving forward.  Life throws a lot at you.  It’s how you continue that makes you who you are.

I took a quiz on facebook.  I learned that I will survive a zombie apocalypse all the way to the end.  I didn’t need a quiz to tell me that – 2014 already taught me that I am going all the way to the end with everything I’ve got.